Change...

College kid is in his last year of college....he is getting his Master's Degree. (we hope)

My husband and I will be so happy when he is finished with college!

Even if he is paying for this year  we are still helping with his living expenses.(it's not cheap)

But as I was ironing his shirts and helping him pack up his things to take back to school with him I realized

that he may not come back home from college this time.

He may get a job as soon as he is finished and move to who knows where.

This is not making me happy.

I am not a fan of change.

Even though I know that this is what we want for our children.....to go out in the world and make a life for themselves.....I am sad about it.

Our oldest son lives less than a mile from our house.

He eats supper with us almost every night........I like this.

Where does the time go?

College kid played two years of baseball at a  Junior College.....and he lived about 45 minutes from home.

He came home every weekend.

And then he went to the University of Alabama.....about 2 hours away.

I remember moving him in and I knew the visits would get less and less.

And they did.

Sometimes he would bring friends home with him and he will never know how much this helped my heart.

I could cook for them and hover over them and ask a million questions.

But now his friends are going in different directions as they all graduate.

Did I say I don't do well with change?

Can I wind back the clock?

Even though we were so broke back then and had to make home made Halloween costumes (Tom and Jerry) I would do this all over again.

Can you believe I'm crying as I post this.....:(

I know....the next step (I hope) will be my boys getting married and having grand children and I can't wait!!!!

But do we have to have years in between those times?

It is the natural order of life and I know I shouldn't be so sad about it but.....

These were some of the best times in my life.

But I know that God is in control and he even gave us an example of parenting in nature.

The Eagle

When the mother eagle is expecting her young, she prepares a large nest high on the edge of a cliff. She fashions it out of giant branches and sharp thorns. She then fills it with layer upon layer of soft feathers.

When the baby eagles arrive and start getting all comfy-cozy in the nest, do you know what the mother eagle does? Each day she removes a few more feathers until, finally, the nest becomes unbearable. She does this deliberately, knowing full well that unless she forces her little ones out of their comfort zone, they’ll never take that leap of faith. They’ll never know what it means to soar.

Well, finally the little eagles can take it no longer. They climb to the edge of the nest and look down into the giant chasm below. Their hearts are gripped with fear, but what they’ve got is so bad, the unknown could hardly be worse. They mount their courage and take the leap of faith, realizing that their wings are completely untested. They have no skill, no experience, no backup plan. They have absolutely no cause for confidence.

The baby eagle continues plummeting toward the earth, and just when it seems all hope is lost the mother eagle swoops underneath her and allows her to mount up on her wings. For the first time in her life she knows what it means to soar. From that moment on, there’s no holding her back. She is free from fear. Confident.

Like an eagle that stirs up its nest and hovers over its young, that spreads its wings to catch them and carries them on its pinions.

                                                                                                               Deuteronomy 32:11

With such a great example who am I to question the passing of time and life's incredible journey.

I will trust in God to take care of me and my "eaglets" and pray as I set them free to let them soar.
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