Thursday, August 13, 2015

Ice Cream and Opiates - Part One - Broken

 
Ice cream and Opiates
 
Part One - Broken 


 
How can I be at the drive thru window of Sonic,
 
 on a beautiful summer day,
 
 ordering ice cream with no whipped topping
 
 for my grown son

 while on my way to leave him
 
at a drug detox center?

Yes......a....drug.....detox.....center.

I'm in a daze.
 
I feel as if I'm in an alternate universe.

How can you order something as sweet and innocent as ice cream and
 
your son is sitting next to you scared and having withdrawal symptoms?

Can the girl at the drive thru window hear the tremble of unshed tears in my voice?

Do the sunglasses cover the puffiness around my eyes?

They have no idea that I looked in the mirror this morning and saw a much older version of myself.
 
How did this happen?
 
There are moments in your life when something happens and from one second
 
before the moment and the next second, your life has changed forever.
 
You are no longer the same person from the second before.

Who was that happy, carefree, joke telling, chocolate eating, chicken loving woman?

Where is she now?

Will she ever return?

She is driving and praying and asking questions.

She is desperate to understand.

You think that you and your husband and children had a great life.

That they were raised with love and God and with enough coping skills that they

could handle anything.

What went wrong?

You question everything now......was it all a lie?

What happened to my first born baby boy?

The one that, like mom, loves animals, and loves the great outdoors like his dad.

The one who has a mind as sharp as a tack and a smile that rivals the sun.

Who loves children and is so tender towards his grand parents.

Where did he go?

He started by taking a pill to get him through an all night work shift.

And then he had to take two......and three......

He described it like being a hostage......with a hold on him that he couldn't get away from.

He was robbed by a thief that he willingly let in.

He has made 5,681,000 right decisions and the small number of wrong decisions

he has made can take him down in an instant.

And bring all of our worlds crashing down with his.

I pull into the hospital parking lot and I grab his hand and ask if I can pray.

We pray with tears running down both of our cheeks.

We get out of the car and he reaches in the back seat to get his suitcase

and he asks if he can take my bible with him.

In that moment I feel God by my side.

He will not leave me nor forsake me.

Only God can restore a mother's broken heart.

 

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Thank goodness there is a Part Two to this story......


 


Friday, August 7, 2015

Lazy Blogger = Facebook Posts

As I'm cleaning up an all male bathroom I have questions?

 Like bathtub makers...why would you make pitted bottoms on your tubs...

I know it is slip resistant but you need a pressure washer to get the dirt out.
 
 And I laugh at you scrubbing bubbles ...bubbles are for dainty almost clean bathrooms
 
 I need scrubbing bombs!
 
 And if a man can have a machine that mows the grass and then turns it into nice square bales
 
surely they could make a machine to clean toilets so I would never have to touch them.
 
 In conclusion I know I should make the men clean this bathroom but sadly they think they already
 
 
 
 
When you pour you a "generous" bowl of cereal and there is just a tad bit more
 
 in the box and you rationalize that what is in the box
 
 is not a good serving for the next person so you top off your bowl.............
 
congratulations Lisa.....you have just eaten a half of a box of cereal.
 
 
 
The Birthday princess is riding in style to her party��
 
Mom turns 80!!
 
 
Grateful and praising the Lord as I set out on a new day��
Lisa Tucker's photo.
 
 
 
 
 
I run past Shannon as he opens the door to the house.
 
Him: hey! What's your hurry?
 
 Me: I'm suppose to meet a friend to get a pedicure and I'm late!!
 
 Him: well why did you stop by the house then?
 
 Me: to shave my toes�� him: ugg...I had to ask
 

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Love and a Root Canal....

 
 
What do you do after you've been married 31 years???

 One goes to work and the other one gets a root canal. Hope the next 31 are just as exciting...
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
So after I get back from the dentist the conversation goes like this.

 Shannon : I know you don't feel like going somewhere tonight but I will make it up to you and we will go somewhere real soon. I love you.
 

 Me: Awww...if my wipsh wash not numb I would kish you.....I wufsh you too. Oopsh....sorry I swobbered on yoush arm.
 
 
 
(later that night)
 
Now this is how you celebrate...11:00 ice cream
 
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Monday, June 29, 2015

Chicken Thighs

 
 
Ahhhh....
 
the country life...
 

 
It makes some great scenery for my walk today.
 
Yes, I said my walk today.
 
I'm starting the healthy lifestyle....................................................................again.
 
 
I meal prepped yesterday.
 
 
 
I know....I know.....you've heard it all before....yada yada yada.
 
But I'm no quitter!........................well.....I am...I've quit 5,699 times
 
but I get back up and try again 5,700 times...:)
 
Oh my poor husband has heard it all.
 
The planning, the prepping, the books, the videos, the exercise equipment,
 
the excuses, the whining, the complaining, the groaning.
 
This morning I say "I may be a little late for work, I'm going to walk."
 
He says "ummmhmmm.....you know if you would just.."
 
Me: "grrrrr" (I may have growled a little) and (my evil eye starts twitching)
 
He tries again " I'm just saying all it takes is...."
 
Me:  "grrrrrr" (I pick up the knife.......(to cut grapes!)....but he doesn't know that (wink, wink).
 
He says "okay,  take all the time you need."
 
So I walked.....two miles...:)
 

 It was great.....and I feel so much better.
 
Consistency is my main problem......all you have to do is read a few months back
 
and you will see I've "started over" many other times.
 
I went to a wedding this weekend and when I opted for almost  a "muumuu" to wear
 
after 3 hours of trying on everything in my closet.....well......it was a great motivator.
 
I think the meal prep will really help.
 
I caught the chickens discussing my latest fitness plan when I got back.
 
"Here she comes.....can you believe she is trying to lose weight again."
 
"If only she were a chicken......we look marvelous with fat thighs, and big breasts."
 
 
"Shhhhhh...here she comes."
 
"BokBok ....LOOKING GOOD CHICKEN MAMA....bok....."
 
Lucy whispers  "Bok.....poor girl.....she looked terrible...bok..."
 
"tsk, tsk..........if only she were a chicken......
 
 
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Thursday, June 25, 2015

Make Your Mornings Count

 
 
How can I forget this so easily?
 
As you know I've gone from a full time stay at home wife to a full time working
 
in our new business wife.
 
I'm not going to lie to you........it's hard.
 
I have days of excitement at our new venture and happiness in working
 
with my husband and one of my sons.
 
And I have days of thinking that my dream, my personal dream, was just
 
the opposite of what I am doing now.
 
My slow, simple, chickens and chores and clothesline and canning seem to be a thing
 
of the past.
 
I say over and over to myself "it's not about me, it's not your year".
 
I feel selfish even brooding over it  because my husband has worked
 
so hard his entire life and I was able to stay home and raise our boys.
 
 
So we work hard....we leave home early in the morning and we come
 
home late in the evening.
 
Don't get me wrong, I am so grateful to even have this wonderful
 
opportunity to have our own business and like I said I get a wonderful
 
satisfaction in putting that key in the door every day.
 
And one day I hope for a little more balance in my life to enjoy the things
 
I loved doing at home also.
 
"It's not about me....it's not my year." (my mantra)
 
We have been incredibly blessed because we have had a great 10 months
 
in business so far.
 
But the last month slowed down quite a bit and it tends to make you nervous when
 
even during the "good" times it's hard to make a new business work.
 
The past few months I have been so busy that I let the most important things slide a little.
 
I've been out of my morning habit of reading the Bible and spending time with the Lord
 
and saying my prayers.
 
And I knew this was most of the reason that I have been feeling so stressed lately.
 
So two days ago I vowed I would start my morning off right!
 
 
Why am I always surprised by God?
 
Like I said before.....we have been slow in business for the last month.
 
Two days ago I get back to my daily habit of morning prayers and worship.
 
And yesterday a power ball lottery winner (80 million) came into our business
 
and bought not just one but two of our units! (atvs and utility vehicles)
 
Then the sweet couple left a $100 for all of us to buy lunch with!
 
And that same day we sold several other units!!
 
And today we were extremely busy and a NFL football player walked through
 
the door and was looking at an ATV and said he would be back to buy real soon!!
 
After that three more people came in and bought units from us!
 
 
GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!
 
You never know when God will feed five thousand with five loaves and two fishes,
 
when He will part the Red Sea or
 
when he will send a rich man and an athlete your way!
 
I am not telling you this to say I had anything to do with this....
 
I am telling you this in order to give God all the glory!!!
 
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Monday, June 22, 2015

Catching You Up....

 
So sorry...it's been too long since I've visited with you all.
 
What's been going on with y'all?
 
Not much here.....let's see....
 
I fell in love...
 


 
I visited my boy in Pensacola...
 
 
 
My brother took us on a Mother's Day cruise on his boat...
 
 
My Dad will not behave for photos...
 
Of course we have visited "Redneck Island" on the river
 
 
We are all missing our sweet Bucky...
 
 
I find the sweetest notes at work..
 
 
I finally had some recognition of my talents....
 
 
I've had a beach trip or two....
 
 
I took this photo of a lady I didn't know on the beach..
 
I loved how it turned out...
 

It's been a great Summer so far..
 
How is your Summer going?
 
 
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